Kind Of What It Sounds Like

I need a place to vent my thoughts. I have been in the dating scene for a while and have had my fair share of experiences. I've come to a place now in my life where I want to settle down and have a family and be with one guy. I'm still a slut at heart, but I want to be a slut with one person and just use our mutual love and sexual creativity to keep intimacy fresh. To this end, I've decided to stop having early hook up sex with guys I date. I had a hook up last week when I went to the Midwest to visit family; but it was in a public park and with a guy who I wasn't attracted to. I don't masturbate in my parents house and it had been over a week. Since I'm nervous about overloading my testicles and doctors say sex helps you stay cancer free, I figured I should bust a nut. So I drove to a park and saw a guy. We chatted for a bit and I asked him what he likes to do, he said "I like to suck cock." So I let him. He thanked me and I went on my way 2 minutes later. (It had been over a week)

Now I am back in the big city I call home and I am horny as hell. I just started dating this new guy and he's pretty freaking amazing. We have similar political beliefs but they are just different enough to make the conversation interesting. He's an activist and passionate. And he's a strapping guy who works out but isn't muscular. Just hunky-meaty-big. How I like 'em. What I found out on our date a couple of days ago was that listening to him talk gives me an erection. Watching him think gives me an erection. Standing near him and looking at his ears gives me an erection. I told him we can't have sex right away, but being horny this weekend and just back in town I wanted to suggest a platonic sleepover. I knew I'd give in. But he said he liked the idea of us dating and courtship. He's perfect! It's totally what I want and makes me want him even more.

I've had a fantasy about bike riders for a little over a year since seeing a hot sweaty guy at a bicycle shop. I'd like a guy to ride his bike all day and have a nice sweat spot going in back and then come home and sit on my face. It gives me chills just to think about it. So the issue has become when is it okay to ask Mr. Perfect to eat his butt? We haven't even talked about it and he may be one of those No-Butt-For-You Tops, but for now since he is Mr. Perfect, I'm going to pretend like I know what I'm talking about.

I felt a little needy after the date so I decided to see other people so I won't mess things up with Perfection. I added Mr. Twix yesterday. He's a hot top new to town with large nipples and a steady career in the art world. Thank God for the internet, it lets you know right off what you are dealing with. Really in life two things are sure to get me hard, a man who is political and a man who is artistic. I dated a guy once who I wasn't even attracted to until I saw his paintings and I gave it up that night and wanted to get married six months later. But anyway, Mr. Twix has a mind of his own and seems kind of cocky and global. With the large nipples to suckle I can totally imagine being dominated, and enjoying it, but another key to this blog is that I have only been fucked by a handful of guys and the next one who fucks me, I want to be married to. Although I've given myself one more fuck in case I decide to hire a porn star just to sow oats. I'm pretty proud of my lack of experience because I think it'll give my husband something to be happy about as we learn together. Mr. Twix has the creative mind to get some. But we'll see.

The final player is Mr. Minor, he's a musician. He's zany and has a great smile and an awesome body. We're moving toward our first date after a few weeks of flirting. He may drop off because right now he is in the bi-friendly music maker category which may mean we only suck cock and then it's over. If this is the case I may replace him with some other dudes who I run into or happen to seduce. There is one straight guy who is shy and seems willing to let a dude blow him. But I'm trying not to return to state of living. Straight seduction is really easy if you have the will not to let it affect your self esteem, but it always does.

So Mr. Perfection, Mr. Twix, and Mr. Minor. All great guys; I only have one heart though. I'll post again soon.