Virgin or Whore

I'm too tired to post because for the second night in a row I'm home at 2am after busting a nut with a dude I just met. I'll post an update in the morning. I feel like I'm in a remix video for Soft Cell's "Numbers" and "Tainted Love". But I am having fun.

Sunday Best

So I had a good weekend. I didn't see Twix on Friday as he had other plans. It worked out for the best. I almost hung out with Mr. Minor but his invite was last minute and it was far away.
I didn't go dancing or to the birthday party. I went to a drag queen show near my house and had fun because it was free and then I crashed out. Yesterday I went dancing with friends, one of whom I've only seen twice since college. We had fun. I got 7 numbers. I called three guys today, I thought that I would possibly add three guys to the list, but only one will probably get it. And that's because he lives closer than the others. I'll call him Mr. Moral. He told me in the middle of a club about "his Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ" and is a former Catholic; I asked him to make out with me but he just started dating a new guy and wants to give them a chance. I told him that it was a test and we should just be friends. He walked me and my friends around the club and his arms are the size of two of mine. I rather enjoyed holding his arm and expressing some fem pride. He called back twice today to see if we could hang out.

I was hanging out with Mr. Perfect tonight though. I thought we were going to get coffee but he called after drinking wine, kind of drunk so I invited him over. And he biked over and had a tear in his pants on his butt. We talked and cuddled and then we started making out and then I pulled us onto the floor and then we got heavy and took our shirts off and then I fingered his butt a little and asked him to sit on my face. He said "next time". I put my finger in my mouth and it tasted like sweat and ass. I was losing control. I threw his legs over my shoulders and we kissed pretty heavy. I tried to get more of his clothes off but he was pretty good at resisting. I had jacked off a couple of hours before he came over but it was still a close call in terms of me talking his clothes off. But we had fun and I tried to make him feel beautiful. He doesn't see his own beauty, but we're working on that.

With Flying Colors

I passed the first test. It didn't hurt that Mr. Perfection didn't ride his bike over to my house after work. He drove instead. I pumped up him riding his bike in a text message so I think he felt a little guilty. We had a good dinner and made out in the dark. He was being all coy and stuff so that made it fun because I could be really aggressive and he would have limits. I like being the guy sometimes with the gays. So for the ass counters out there, I did not eat butt on Wednesday.

Thursday I wore one of my wigs and went out to a friend's music show. It was pretty cool. I got hit on by a guy on the bus and a few other guys were into me because they thought I was a girl. Some just like the fem look too; the market is always different depending upon who you want to be when you leave your house. I invited both Mr. Twix and Mr. Minor to the show but neither one showed up. Tonight I'm supposed to go dancing with Twix but my friend's birthday party is tonight so I don't know how it's all going to work itself out. And I think that Mr. Perfection may make a bid, but it's good to stay busy when dealing with perfection.

Mr. Twix I just want to have sex with and get it over with; ideally he'd let me eat a Twix bar out of his ass even though he is a top. Twix is his name because his real name sounds like a candy bar. I thought I saw him at the music show but it was just a rocker with tight pants and unique hair. Wearing a blue wig displaced a few guys who thought they were being edgy, especially because I wasn't peacocking but just did it to liberate my own fem wiles.

A New Test

Tomorrow I'm having dinner with Mr. Perfection. I am really excited even though my apartment is really dirty. I will clean it up in time. The problem is that Mr. Perfection will be in my apartment and I am horny; well I masturbated today so it should be fine. But Mr. Perfection plans to ride his bike to my apartment! It's really scary because I can only imagine how sweaty his butt will be after the ride and I will want him to just sit on my face for dinner. I will be strong though. Until next time.

Kind Of What It Sounds Like

I need a place to vent my thoughts. I have been in the dating scene for a while and have had my fair share of experiences. I've come to a place now in my life where I want to settle down and have a family and be with one guy. I'm still a slut at heart, but I want to be a slut with one person and just use our mutual love and sexual creativity to keep intimacy fresh. To this end, I've decided to stop having early hook up sex with guys I date. I had a hook up last week when I went to the Midwest to visit family; but it was in a public park and with a guy who I wasn't attracted to. I don't masturbate in my parents house and it had been over a week. Since I'm nervous about overloading my testicles and doctors say sex helps you stay cancer free, I figured I should bust a nut. So I drove to a park and saw a guy. We chatted for a bit and I asked him what he likes to do, he said "I like to suck cock." So I let him. He thanked me and I went on my way 2 minutes later. (It had been over a week)

Now I am back in the big city I call home and I am horny as hell. I just started dating this new guy and he's pretty freaking amazing. We have similar political beliefs but they are just different enough to make the conversation interesting. He's an activist and passionate. And he's a strapping guy who works out but isn't muscular. Just hunky-meaty-big. How I like 'em. What I found out on our date a couple of days ago was that listening to him talk gives me an erection. Watching him think gives me an erection. Standing near him and looking at his ears gives me an erection. I told him we can't have sex right away, but being horny this weekend and just back in town I wanted to suggest a platonic sleepover. I knew I'd give in. But he said he liked the idea of us dating and courtship. He's perfect! It's totally what I want and makes me want him even more.

I've had a fantasy about bike riders for a little over a year since seeing a hot sweaty guy at a bicycle shop. I'd like a guy to ride his bike all day and have a nice sweat spot going in back and then come home and sit on my face. It gives me chills just to think about it. So the issue has become when is it okay to ask Mr. Perfect to eat his butt? We haven't even talked about it and he may be one of those No-Butt-For-You Tops, but for now since he is Mr. Perfect, I'm going to pretend like I know what I'm talking about.

I felt a little needy after the date so I decided to see other people so I won't mess things up with Perfection. I added Mr. Twix yesterday. He's a hot top new to town with large nipples and a steady career in the art world. Thank God for the internet, it lets you know right off what you are dealing with. Really in life two things are sure to get me hard, a man who is political and a man who is artistic. I dated a guy once who I wasn't even attracted to until I saw his paintings and I gave it up that night and wanted to get married six months later. But anyway, Mr. Twix has a mind of his own and seems kind of cocky and global. With the large nipples to suckle I can totally imagine being dominated, and enjoying it, but another key to this blog is that I have only been fucked by a handful of guys and the next one who fucks me, I want to be married to. Although I've given myself one more fuck in case I decide to hire a porn star just to sow oats. I'm pretty proud of my lack of experience because I think it'll give my husband something to be happy about as we learn together. Mr. Twix has the creative mind to get some. But we'll see.

The final player is Mr. Minor, he's a musician. He's zany and has a great smile and an awesome body. We're moving toward our first date after a few weeks of flirting. He may drop off because right now he is in the bi-friendly music maker category which may mean we only suck cock and then it's over. If this is the case I may replace him with some other dudes who I run into or happen to seduce. There is one straight guy who is shy and seems willing to let a dude blow him. But I'm trying not to return to state of living. Straight seduction is really easy if you have the will not to let it affect your self esteem, but it always does.

So Mr. Perfection, Mr. Twix, and Mr. Minor. All great guys; I only have one heart though. I'll post again soon.